Today I decided to take a day for myself. Besides the fact that it's something I rarely do, I've been finding myself depressed more often than not in the last few weeks, and overly sensitive in every situation.
I have gradually come to the realization that I am extremely hard on myself, and I also tend to carry the weight of the world. When I'm feeling down I am aware of how it affects those around me, and realize that I am not only hurting myself, I am also hurting those I care about. It's a downward spiral that doesn't lead anywhere constructive.
So today I'm taking some time to celebrate my victories and do some things that I enjoy. It's funny how quickly things can change when you put your focus on what you love. Right now it feels as though there isn't enough time in a day to do everything I'd like to do.
Speaking of accomplishments, I've reached my goal of writing over 80 posts here on Arctic Sunburn, and that's definitely a victory worth celebrating.
So far today, I've spent some time watching Spoony, finally wrapped up Ratchet & Clank, and even played a bit of Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2. That's right, the original THPS2 for PlayStation. I remember playing this game like it was going out of style. It's funny how easily you forget how the emergence of next-gen consoles has changed everything. The graphics in THPS2 are bearable, but the controls feel extremely slippery compared to modern-day equivalents. There's the reviewer in me coming through again, but it was a fun trip down memory lane nevertheless.
I'd still like to spend some time in meditation, playing guitar, exercising, drawing, and reading today. Maybe I'll even get out for a walk at some point. There is no pressure to get it all done, but it's what I want to do. Of course, I couldn't take a day like this without doing a bit of blogging/writing as well.
So there you go; a brief overview of the past and the present. "What about the future?", you may ask. Okay, maybe you didn't, but just let me pretend for a moment that you did.
I've had a lot of fun working on Arctic Sunburn and a variety of other blogs, and I doubt that I will ever stop writing, because it's something I enjoy. If you're like me, though, you are a very driven person, taking on too many things all at once, and investing a lot of time into ventures that don't really pay off.
Don't get me wrong; if I was in it for the money, I wouldn't blog or play music because they tend to be high risk ventures. I am a very creative person, and I am constantly in the process of creating something, whether it's music or a painting or a blog post.
However, it's time for me to start thinking about wrapping things up. As it is often said, "don't start anything you can't finish" and for better or for worse I have started far too many things that have yet to be completed, or haven't gotten the attention they rightly deserve. I'd like to simplify my life to some extent, and spend more time focused on one or two ventures as opposed 12. If I were to narrow it down, I think there are three things I do best, and would willingly do without any reward. Those things are as follows: Music, writing, and art. I was practically born with a paintbrush in my hand, and enjoyed drawing and painting a lot in my formative years. Music entered the picture when I was 14, when I wrote my first song. I picked up the guitar at 17, and have since invested a lot of time into it. Writing came into the picture in the last two to three years. I like to think that I have always had a knack for it, but I've never written more in my life than in the last two years.
I could ramble on and on, but I will simply wrap this up by saying that Arctic Sunburn may no longer be in the cards for the future. I'm thinking about launching a new blog at some point, but this time I want to do it right from the get-go, as opposed to writing content and then hoping that someone will find it. Ultimately, I only want to have one blog as opposed to the 6 or 7 I have right now. I already have some new ideas in the works, and I'm pretty stoked for it.
Reviewing video games and movies has been lovely, but there are at least 1/2 dozen or so other video reviewers that do it really well and are extremely talented. I don't expect to be able to hold a candle to them when I don't put in anywhere near as much time as they do into it (nor do I intend to). I think I will occasionally review movies and games on my new blog, but we'll see. This may not be the final and official "goodbye" on my part, but I hope that you have enjoyed this journey as much as I have.
God bless.
I have gradually come to the realization that I am extremely hard on myself, and I also tend to carry the weight of the world. When I'm feeling down I am aware of how it affects those around me, and realize that I am not only hurting myself, I am also hurting those I care about. It's a downward spiral that doesn't lead anywhere constructive.
So today I'm taking some time to celebrate my victories and do some things that I enjoy. It's funny how quickly things can change when you put your focus on what you love. Right now it feels as though there isn't enough time in a day to do everything I'd like to do.
Speaking of accomplishments, I've reached my goal of writing over 80 posts here on Arctic Sunburn, and that's definitely a victory worth celebrating.
So far today, I've spent some time watching Spoony, finally wrapped up Ratchet & Clank, and even played a bit of Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2. That's right, the original THPS2 for PlayStation. I remember playing this game like it was going out of style. It's funny how easily you forget how the emergence of next-gen consoles has changed everything. The graphics in THPS2 are bearable, but the controls feel extremely slippery compared to modern-day equivalents. There's the reviewer in me coming through again, but it was a fun trip down memory lane nevertheless.
I'd still like to spend some time in meditation, playing guitar, exercising, drawing, and reading today. Maybe I'll even get out for a walk at some point. There is no pressure to get it all done, but it's what I want to do. Of course, I couldn't take a day like this without doing a bit of blogging/writing as well.
So there you go; a brief overview of the past and the present. "What about the future?", you may ask. Okay, maybe you didn't, but just let me pretend for a moment that you did.
I've had a lot of fun working on Arctic Sunburn and a variety of other blogs, and I doubt that I will ever stop writing, because it's something I enjoy. If you're like me, though, you are a very driven person, taking on too many things all at once, and investing a lot of time into ventures that don't really pay off.
Don't get me wrong; if I was in it for the money, I wouldn't blog or play music because they tend to be high risk ventures. I am a very creative person, and I am constantly in the process of creating something, whether it's music or a painting or a blog post.
However, it's time for me to start thinking about wrapping things up. As it is often said, "don't start anything you can't finish" and for better or for worse I have started far too many things that have yet to be completed, or haven't gotten the attention they rightly deserve. I'd like to simplify my life to some extent, and spend more time focused on one or two ventures as opposed 12. If I were to narrow it down, I think there are three things I do best, and would willingly do without any reward. Those things are as follows: Music, writing, and art. I was practically born with a paintbrush in my hand, and enjoyed drawing and painting a lot in my formative years. Music entered the picture when I was 14, when I wrote my first song. I picked up the guitar at 17, and have since invested a lot of time into it. Writing came into the picture in the last two to three years. I like to think that I have always had a knack for it, but I've never written more in my life than in the last two years.
I could ramble on and on, but I will simply wrap this up by saying that Arctic Sunburn may no longer be in the cards for the future. I'm thinking about launching a new blog at some point, but this time I want to do it right from the get-go, as opposed to writing content and then hoping that someone will find it. Ultimately, I only want to have one blog as opposed to the 6 or 7 I have right now. I already have some new ideas in the works, and I'm pretty stoked for it.
Reviewing video games and movies has been lovely, but there are at least 1/2 dozen or so other video reviewers that do it really well and are extremely talented. I don't expect to be able to hold a candle to them when I don't put in anywhere near as much time as they do into it (nor do I intend to). I think I will occasionally review movies and games on my new blog, but we'll see. This may not be the final and official "goodbye" on my part, but I hope that you have enjoyed this journey as much as I have.
God bless.



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